LEAVE ME ALONE

writing to check in. coming off a wonderfully relaxing weekend. american nearly felt like canada must.

you still in town? any remarkable details to divulge? "why would i tell a fellow i hardly know."

not true. you don't know me at all. but that i'm american. and quite lowercase at that.

i hope you're well. maybe see you soon.

pick up lines don't work - stick to your literary references

I like the Natural History Museum. I like to walk in and imagine Holden Caulfield was there only minutes before - erasing all the fucks in the Egyptian section (Bonus literary reference!)

As for the other reference: I said that my friend and I narrowed down your sexual proclivities (peccadillos?) as either a) whips, chains, leather, diamond encrusted dildos - you know, the kind of stuff we ALL have in our bottom drawers - or b) dressing up as a cat. You snuffed out the chains so that meant there was only one answer left.

You know what I just thought of? I just thought of the most interesting pick up line ever. I'm going to save it.

rocks tonic juice magic

Provided that you met your ultra important, super duper pressing deadline this morning, I think you should chase the dragon again with
me tonight at K&M. Tasty tunes provided, yet again, by our mustachioed friend!

What do you think?

OF COURSE you are back together

no one is more surprised than i am at how things have played out. if you can see where i'm coming from then hopefully you will understand why i had to do what i did. it's been months since i first wrote you that note and told you how i felt, and other then saying you cared about me, there was no indication of any romantic or sexual feelings. you may recall that before we hooked up it was a couple months since that last came up.

i'm only human and things just became too much too soon for me. i had to hit the reset button. at no point while we were together did i think that we were any more likely to date, or be a couple or whatever, than we were before it happened. that's honestly the impression i had of our situation. which is why i'm surprised and bummed out that this has upset you like it has now that it's over. so now i'm finding out that you were really into things and were coming around to the idea of us being together.

when you think about it we've been friends for way longer than we've been lovers so i really believe that we can fall back into our previous routine, more or less.

though it won't be exaaactly the same. so, i have to tell you that **** and i are something again. this just happened yesterday. what i need for you to know is that my decision to end things with you was made entirely independent of what's happened with her. i can say to you with complete confidence that i still would have ended things with you regardless of her. i can't make you believe that though.

i'm sorry. there's no other way to put it. i never knew what it was like to be blown away by someone until i met you. you are incredible. i want to know you for the rest of my life.

inadequately yours,

I AM NOT CRAZY, I SWEAR!

what the fuck, young lady? you so openly provide your email to thee to, then, withhold reply to my utterly charming memo. wasn't it? do you think i might be crazy, with the uncalled-for beard and aloof smoking posture? if i may say so, i am not crazy. me saying.

regardless, i thought to seek a little content to the form. genuinely curious as to what you're writing. if not, a piece of humanitarian advice: humor the next one you spell it out for and CONTRIVE the email address. therefore, you'll be immune from any of these self-pleasuring second email diatribes.

any which way, good morning. north america couldn't be more beautiful, today.

Thanks for introducing me to Boston babes

good afternoon. it's me, the dude from legion who provoked talk of hockey between you and the bostonians. how did the night proceed? mine, easily. as well as longly.

Drink 'Til We're Gone

LOL... if you like free booze and good music you should come to my house. Admittedly the party scene in my apartment is limited but you get better alcohol :)
Do you have any plans for tomorrow night? we can get some beers and go see a movie. I got half priced tickets for pretty much everything and you have a talent for booze smuggling.

RIP cat, weird dude

I just wanted to see if you're doing alright, or the best you can be right now. I want to call you but i know you need your alone time to grieve, so just call me if you need to talk, or just want to hear from me. I don't want to crowd you right now. But just know i'm thinking about you non stop.

Always remember you gave Pepper an amazing life, one far better than most people can give to one of their animals.

Keep your head high my little lady.

Stage 5 clinger

kind of got the impression that I annoyed you when we were last on the phone with each other. I don't know, maybe I'm just over thinking it a little.

So yeah, hopefully that isn't the case. I don't know, call me when you can I guess.


And sorry if I did annoy you.

miss you.

xoxoxo

watch your heart or it could be stolen by lonely boy

i'm sad you're gone, and that i didn't get to say a proper goodbye. especially after such short notice that you're both leaving, and single. it's a shame we couldn't share a little last night in town snuggle. you'll be the first to know when and if i decide to take my chances with wine.

miss you, you know you love me! xo xo

street fighting man

I just got mugged hard in Phnom Pemh== beat to hell; destroyed shirt, broken fingers and stolen phone. Details when I am on a decent computer. Ouch!
I found the guy and brought two bamboo shoots-- didnt matter. He disliked me more than I disliked him-- my body feels like shit.

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ya= walking home, pilled out. on my phone. he came up and asked if i wanted a moto taxi and just started punching me. i landed one on him, beefore he had me on my back, kicking my chest, back and face. thought i was going to die. didnt get my camera though. i got up and ran towards his friend on the moto bike-- he pulled out a big butcher machete cleaver. i ran after the moto like an idiot. finally grabbed 2 bamboo sticks and went to the snooker club where the gangs hang out. that was foolish. i had a shirt completely ripped down the front-- juist fucked up and sleeves. bare chested. i dropped one stick, while arguing with some guy-- there were 40. then, the guy spotted me before i saw him and he came up and punched me. i hit him with the bamboo stick, before he bowled me over and everyone pulled him off me. i said, i just want my phone. 20 dollars? its a phone that a girl at my work let me borrow. he ran at me again-- i finally just walked home.

2 broken fingerss-- big bandages on chest., back and eye. i was dumb to go back and look for it. in a country this poor, those in poverty have no consequences. if they would have killed me, who would have cared-- scary world.

least they didnt get my camera. i cant type with my hand all fucked.

love is hell

I don't even know where to start. First of all I wish I was with you so I could slap and hug you at the same time.

Live for yourself first and foremost. I know what you are going through. I can't say I'm in your shoes but I know what you are going trough. You worked hard for a career and you had it taken away. You worked hard not to be in debt and now you are knee deep in it. You worked hard for a good relationship and now you don't have one. Well guess what it gets better. You will find another job that you love beleive me. You will get out of debt. Everyone has debt once in their life. I know you don't like it and it makes you feel nervous since you always had issues with money/debt since you were young but you will get out of it. As for being in love, YOU of all people don't need to worry about that. I know things may seems shitty especially now but I don't know if you noticed dudes LOVE you. Granted it may take a little time to find one as good or better then **** and what you guys had but guess what it WILL happen. So get your head out of the gutter and LIVE your life. You moved to **** for a fresh start so go and start it. If it doesn't work out move back to ****, or move to Machu Pichu where ever you need to go. Where ever you go you should probably know that you will always be loved by at least one person. Well one and a half I'm counting **** as a half right now.

Things are always darkest before they get brighter, remember that. Soon it will be so bright you will need to wear sunglasses at night and have a excuse for it.
love always your bfff

YEAH AND YOU'RE FULL OF SHIT

Your are the love of my life. I miss you every second.

hey yo

I'm not apologizing, I'll just say we're even for you making me go on a walk of shame this morning in a cat fur t shirt. Peta drove by and threw a bucket of red paint at me.

I think he already took some xanax

is it just me or are you up at weird hours of the night?
i am headed to a "punk night" in phnom penh-- wonder what it has in store for me. regardless, i have a pocket full of xanax that i picked up for $2.50, so the night should be okay. it's weird spending US currency here. in some ways it legitimizes everything, instead of spending "play money"-- as i have the past year with pounds and euros. on the other hand, it just reinforces the whole ex-pat situation which kind of sickens me. you meet these old white men who talk about this country like it's a play ground-- not a foreign culture and population. i really hate most ex-pats i meet, and avoid them in most situations. i met a shitty south african and an english guy in the border town and they disgusted me. today, i met a really nice guy from maine who really improved my perception. i guess it's situational. i am just not into sex tourism and 'the most american sub sandwich!'

i guess you do have a tendency to weird guys out. too bad.

i don't know what it is, but i love TO. except for nearly everyone i know being out of town, that trip i had there last summer was absolutely amazing. speaking of, when i was in prague 10 days ago (!?), i saw the same bands that i went to see that night i stayed with you in toronto. it was really great. same situation-- seeing my favorite metal/punk bands from backstage. (my life is retarded.)

okay, out for the night. <3

one day we'll share a bottle of wine

I assume things are better in the heartland? (a little double entendre for both your feelings and the state of new jersey, as referenced by the likes of bruce springsteen and jon bon jovi)

no call on an anniversary? what is that shit?

and that's a rap

Well we didn't have the greatest talk cuz you were so exhausted,
but don't worry my little dear I haven't gone and lost it.
Your titties are so supple like a swollen pot of honey
And thank god you'll have sex with me cuz you still find me funny.
There's no one else I'd rather be with winter time or fall,
There's no girl anywhere near you, no need to try them all,
There's something that I want to say but I don't have the nerve,
Ah fuck it here it goes: My cutie, you're the one I lurv.

I found out he was in jail from fb...he's my "bf"

I was put in there because I had an upaid peeing in public ticket which I thought was a warning from last year. Was there for 24 hours only to have them realize is was a complete misdemeanor and charge with nothing and let me go. Total bullshit
I am fine
Hope everything is good with you.

after two weeks of silence

I will make some time to talk to you tomorrow or a day or time when I can get in touch with you

Sorry for not responding, I shouldn't be rude to you. I apologize

The only living boy in New York

I decided a few hours ago to take a greyhound to NYC for the weekend. I felt you needed to know about this. Hangs early next week?

like a rolling stone

Figured I'd message you before I got on the plane. Just in case ;)

Sitting here drinking beer super psyched to see you. As is completely excited. So funny never thought I would be this happy to see someone unless of course it was like lynard skynard. Or the rolling stones in the 60's


None the less I'm glad its you Ms. **** that I'm boarding a flight for.

well I guess that's that then...

-What are you so angry about?
I'm not.

-Last time I saw you we hugged and everything was cool.
That's what I thought.

-I haven't even been around so you should at least tell me so I can explain or defend myself.
You don't have to. I don't care anymore.

-Is someone spreading shit or something?
I heard some things.

for a bad time, call...

hey whats up im mike im out here for school for 2 months im just looking for a girl to chill wit...and you look dam sexi ....so holla at me ...ill show a good time my cell is 1(570)******* holla at me

chicago is so last summer

today, i bought a ticket to chicago for november-- meet me there?

you're welcome to watch me work, but like i've said before, i'd make time to see you. i'm in the middle of NC, so that is a ways from even the close part of Tennessee; that being said, you're certainly welcome here.

and, really, we could find a casa loma equivalent anywhere...

He's MIA

I am sorry. I want to know what you're doing. I miss you a bunch. Just not use to emailing all the time. If I could call you, I would dial you constantly. I really wish it was this weekend I was coming to see you. I am very excited to see you. I think about you all the time.

Love you